Blame It On The Pain Episode 68
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π§ Blame It On The Pain SIXTY EIGHT:
βTen years in his underground fi ght club. Which is a load of bull if you ask me, because Iβve seen law enforcement officials there before. Hβll, they place some of the highest bets. Anyway, the terms were one fight every two weeks, to ensure I could recover from any potential injuries.β
I grab a stool to sit down on. βIβd be appointed a coach to ensure I never skipped town and to keep me on a leash.β
βRicardo,β she whispers.
I nod. βYup. Iβd also have to win at least 99% of my fi ghts.β
Her mouth hangs open. βThatβs impossible. No oneβs that good.β
βYou are if itβs your life on the line.β
βYou canβt be that good for 10 years straight Jackson! Your body will start to deteriorate, it will break down from all the constant wear and tear. Thereβs no way you can stay number one for 10 years straight. Iβve seen the guys youβre up against, theyβre nothing but freak shows on steroids β
Her lower lip trembles and I can see the tears in her eyes. βOh, god. DeLuca knows this. He knows that youβll most likely die in the cage before your contract is up. Hβll, heβll probably make sure that it happens.β
βYeah, thatβs pretty much what happens. The only one whoβs ever made it through his 10 years alive is Ricardo. The reason Tyrone and I are the best right now is because thereβs no one else to compare us to. For the most part, guys usually die in the cage around the first year.
If he senses youβre weak, then he matches you up with an opponent he knows you canβt take. If you prove to be worthy, well, then you usually get the honor of dying in the cage around the 7th or 8th year. DeLuca likes to up the stakes by then. Trust me, itβs some real fked up sht.β
I look up to the ceiling because I canβt look at her when I say this. βAnd by your 7th or 8th year, itβs probably bittersweet because youβre so close to being out. You can taste it.
But, at the same time, the mentality of being nothing but a machine has gotten to you, so unless you have something on the outside that grounds you, something to go back toβ¦thereβs really no point in fi ghting anymore.
Sometimes I think the guys donβt make it because they just give up. They get tired of feeling the pain that fuels them to survive. I know I am.β
βLillyβs mu rder is how you survive, isnβt it? Thatβs the source of all your pain.β
βI have to relive every second of it every time Iβm in that cage. Itβs the only way.β
I want to tell her that she was the one who grounded me, who made it better for me, and that she was my something to look forward to, but thereβs something more important that she needs to hear.
βI wanted to protect you, thatβs why I didnβt tell you about DeLuca. I tried to let you go a few times, but I couldnβt do it. I need you like I need my pain to win my fi ghts.β
βWhat are we gonna do, Jackson?β A single tear falls down her cheek. βHow do we make it through this?β
I donβt answer her, instead, I tear the tape off her wrists and hold her in my arms. She buries her face into my chest and sobs her heart out.
βI agree with Ricardo. Donβt go after DeLuca. Itβs too risky and youβll end up de ad. Weβll have to find another way. There has to be another way. I canβt and I wonβt lose another man that I love to him.β
I stay silent because there is another way; the only way to stop him. I could care less about my own life, but Iβm not letting him take hers.
She tilts her head up and I donβt even hesitate to crush her mouth against mine.
There are so many emotions filtering the energy running through us, thereβs only one way to exert it right now.
I lift her up, place her on the counter and she wraps her Iegs around my waist. I wish I could be more gentle with her given the fact that I know sheβs probably feeling sore from what happened earlier, but when she sits up, takes off my shirt and scratches her nails down my back, I lose my composure.
BLAME IT ON THE PAIN : EPISODE 61 β 70
βThank you,β she breathes. βYou have no idea how much I needed that. How much I needed to lose myself in you.β
I almost laugh because Iβm pretty sure I should be thanking her for that experience. I pick her up and carry her into the bedroom. βYou never have to thank me for that. Besides, I needed it just as much, maybe even more.β
I pull back the covers and curl up beside her. βI love you,β she whispers before she drifts off to sleep.
I kss the spot over her heart. βI love you,β I say before I stand up and reach for my cell phone.
I step out into the hallway and dial Fordβs number. He answers on the third ring. βI want to talk about that deal.β
TO Be Continued